``Rainbow in melted chocolate~ =9

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

how can i

If there's one word to describe it, the word starts with an F.

I dun want it, I dun like it, I want to get rid of it..

But how can i get rid of it when it is the evidence, the baby, the fruit of our love? It's all you ever pampered me with..

It's food.

Food----> Fat-----> F**k la.

I was slim but i was unhappy.

Now im happy, IM FAT! WTHHHHHH.

Deon~ ♥ 6:40 PM

Thursday, November 05, 2009

i runno

no thoughts.
no plans.
no urge.
no direction.

the 9 to 5 cycle is taking over me.

Zombieness.

Deon~ ♥ 10:51 PM

Monday, October 19, 2009

i thought i could

im pondering..

i thought i could accept it and take it well..

i really didn't know how to react, maybe i shouldn't have asked in the first place.
i couldn't act like i didn't mind because i mind..
i couldn't act like im okay with it because im not okay with it. I used to think that i'll be okay with it but i wasn't so right.

i was so angry so angry so angry i swear i wanted to bang my head on the wall. i couldn't understand why you had to do this when i was just right behind you, i was there for you. i didn't bang my head on the wall so i let it all out by crying out loud. i was in pain. my heart was in pain. i felt like i wasn't good enough for you.

but it hurt me most when i saw that u were as upset as me. i never want to see that sadness ever again. the truth is, it's not such a big deal, it's common, i am really not good enough, and i wasn't really there for you.

It's hard to determine who is right and who is wrong in this scenario. I dunno how else i should have reacted and i also dunno what to do about it..

I know, time will heal the pain and maybe i will gradually accept it. Nothing's gonna change our love. We'll work it out somehow.

Deon~ ♥ 6:22 PM

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

borned this way

So pretty~~~~ and not yet handsome but talented!! yup im one of those who wish and truly believe that they would be back together.. cant find the other video which i love a lot..

It's their destiny!! LOLOL.

Deon~ ♥ 10:27 PM

Friday, October 09, 2009

something wrong with me

I just feel that my life isn't supposed to be this way....

Deon~ ♥ 11:16 PM

truancy truancy

I skipped ~~class~~ work today! :) like i skipped classes in school..

time for a nap..

sweet afternoon.. -please dun make random ppl like relatives and tele-surveyors call my house, PLEASE!-

Goodnight.

Deon~ ♥ 1:41 PM

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

thats it. finished.

My warehouse manager went on a business trip to Johor today.. To check the metals stored in the warehouses over there.. He was often hard to reach, through phone, and it was no surprise that nobody could get to him today in the office..

At about 4 plus, Stepney, our office manager, dashed into our Boss's room and they closed the door.. I saw our Boss put both his hands on Stepney's shoulders and they sat down together.. I did my work as usual.. Stepney and Boss came out of the room and I didn't really sense anything wrong.. and then it was around 5pm, a few of us were thinking about going home already.. A few already stepped out of the office but they were called to come back..

Everyone was called to the meeting room.. The door was closed.. Boss's face was red and we thought he was gonna scream at us or something.. Then he said..

"Something serious has happened... There has been an accident and Loh is dead."

He fell from the top of the stocks.. Details were not really known..

Until now, those 3 shocking words still keep repeating over and over again in my mind.. Boss said he was sent to the hospital but he didn't make it in the hospital..

There goes a life.. He was such a kind man.. The relationship of the people in my office is very close.. We never really had the feeling of "Superiors" and "Subordinates".. I was a little girl to him and he was a nice uncle to me.. Every man there is Uncle.. Every woman there is either Aunty or fren fren..

After work, Boss and the rest went to my warehouse manager's house to break the news. I just cannot imagine the pain. He is the first person whom I know, even though it's just a short 3 months, who passed away.. and so suddenly..

Everyone was so shocked.

Deon~ ♥ 7:42 PM

Monday, October 05, 2009

Never sick of the good stuff

Imagine Umbrella topping the charts again~~.. for another 12 weeks per version? LOLOL..

AND YES! THE BOYBAND THING!! SO TYPICAL BOYBAND MTV.. though now they're black not white.. and i can imagine BSB singing Beat Again..

It's suitable for BSB lor.. Better than that what shot thru my heart? straight thru my heart? Straight thru my heart thus my heart wun beat again..

Deon~ ♥ 10:40 PM